pomp and circumstance sucks

bam. just like that, college is done.

people keep asking me how i feel. i think i feel anxious.. anxious to start doing something bigger. problem sets are cool and all but i really want to just get out into the world and do something for more than just self-validation in the form of letter grades and report cards. this anxiousness is sort of like those "first day of school butterflies" but with much more momentum behind it, if that makes any sense.

while i think the biggest individual lesson ive learned is to stay humble or be humbled (thanks to my second year roommate, raghu rajkumar, who would beat me by 1 point on every single test no matter how hard i studied (raghu, if you are reading this, i hate you, haha), i think its the small things that each of my friends have taught me that have really changed me.

its sort of like, imagine your life as an asteroid hurtling through space, and each relationship/experience as a collision which shapes and refines you as a person. these collisions wear off your outer facade, reveal your inner self, and change your ultimate (earthly) destination.

or something like that.

whatever. thanks college, its been fun.


-x-

bonus feature: i went to my livejournal and found my post on my high school graduation thoughts. its pretty funny:

"damn. its crazy how fast life moves. its like one minute youre this insignificant freshmen looking up at all the seniors thinkin they are so old and then all of a sudden BAM youre one of them. and sometimes while walkin down the halls id wonder if the freshmen look at me like the same way i looked at the seniors back then. Ok, so this kinda ties into the last entry but its basically like, we can only take life one second at a time, but before we know it, a month, a year, or a freakin decade has passed (i mean youre probably lookin really foward to summer right now but cherish every second of it cuz before you know it its gonna be august, youre gonna get dropped off at college all alone and ur gonna get in the fetal position and cry). and i think time seems like its moving so fast because we are always looking foward to something. but then, that moment passes and you have a new thing youre lookin foward to. we're never really cherish what we have going for us during the present, which is something we should do instead of constantly lookin forward. man, i wish i were better at articulating stuff."

haha, high school me is so stupid.